More and more, as the days roll into weeks and weeks into months, as this year seems to pick up speed and intensity, the almost all-consuming desire to be everything that God has made me to be and to fulfill all He’s called me to do … it’s increasing.
I wanna know better who I am in Him, what are the dreams and plans He’s imparting to and into me … not what I’ve thought in the past, not what others have assumed and prodded me towards, not what the circumstances of my past are dictating, but, I wanna be the best of who He’s created me to be. I want to be a screamin’ everything He’s ever thought for me … being this perfectly crafted puzzle-like piece, fitting just right in the Big Picture He’s planned for the whole Body of Believers.
I’m saying, “LORD, I no longer wanna demand to know where I fit. I just wanna be the most shiny, brilliant, flexible, well-fitted, God-crafted puzzle piece I can be in this awesome plan You have for Your precious family. I wanna thank You, that by Your Word downloaded and the Spirit of Truth in me … the Truth of who You are; the Truth that shines on the walk ahead of me, I WILL BE ABLE TO SEE one step at a time … that’s all that’s important to me right now. I don’t need to see the Big Picture. I don’t need to know if I’m the little finger or the big toe of Your Body of Believers. I trust You that You WILL let me know exactly what, where, how, who, when, and even why, exactly when and if I need to know it cause You’re good, and You love me. Thank You. I take this. I have it, and I WILL to forgive and love as You’ve forgiven and love me … so Mercifully. All in Jesus name.”
1 CORINTHIANS 12:12-13 You can easily enough see how this kind of thing works by looking no further than your own body. Your body has many parts—limbs, organs, cells—but no matter how many parts you can name, you’re still one body. It’s exactly the same with Christ. By means of his one Spirit, we all said good-bye to our partial and piecemeal lives. We each used to independently call our own shots, but then we entered into a large and integrated life in which he has the final say in everything. (This is what we proclaimed in word and action when we were baptized.) Each of us is now a part of his resurrection body, refreshed and sustained at one fountain—his Spirit—where we all come to drink. The old labels we once used to identify ourselves—labels like Jew or Greek, slave or free—are no longer useful. We need something larger, more comprehensive. MSG